Man, this is weird. I feel so down at the moment. Just flat. I thought that Nanae’s birthday would be weird. I expected it. I even expected the sadness when she didn’t return my email (as I knew that was going to happen) but this is different. It feels like there is something fundamentally wrong, just wrong.
Work has been a total drag, frankly in places it’s been awful. Just going there has been a downer. Totally strange.
Things happen that I should find joy in and there’s nothing, just hollow.
I need to raise my game or I am going to become a right dour sod but in a weird way that just makes me feel worse.
What’s wrong? I wish I really knew…..